Ah fuck it, post on gym

I realized in the gym that I’m just not strong and I won’t be. Yea, maybe if I really train for example squats 2-3x per week. Cause last time I did it I worked it up to 115kg 5×5 but then after xmas and a break I couldn’t get back to it. Maybe it was a 2 week break? And then doing squats 100kg 5×5 I can barely do it. Since I don’t want to be training squats 2-3x per week (and I’ve been losing weight lately) then there’s really no point. Of course I could train more etc., but it’s just not worth it. So it’s not that I can’t be strong but I won’t be because I decided that it’s not worth it. Also, I never really felt good in squats with my long femur to torso ratio. Deadlift sumo feels ok, I like it. Bench I don’t do cause I maybe topped out at up to 80kg 5×5 and then again break, didn’t come back to it not training bench 2-3x per week. I guess I just don’t enjoy training without results, really. If numbers were going up I’d keep on. Ok, enough… I guess my point is that I should focus on something I like and put myself in a position of strength and not weakness. And day trading open is my weakness and swing trading my potential strength. There. I didn’t have to write about the whole gym to say that. Hope you enjoyed!