Good news is that I didn’t smoke for last 4 months. Bad news is that I smoked 20 mins ago. Oh well. I want to use this time a bit for reflection.
Here I am, trying to make money as a trader. Reality is that I should follow a system, I know I should follow it and yet I’m still hesitant, fearful of that. I’ve been doing lots of IFS self-therapy and even developed an app for myself to input daily sentence completion (on self-esteem and others). Some of it on IFS i.e. which parts are active, what to do etc.,
For daily priorities, I even came up with a pyramid just as a remainder as to what’s most important.
And if someone like me has things to address things on a personal level, there’s unfortunately some inner work to do and it takes time. But it’s possible to front-load that effort with self-reflection, more self-awareness, perhaps some bigger inner personal shifts. The goal is not to be affected with past experiences which might have affected us negatively in how to become a consistently profitable trader. Basically, the greater self-awareness and less stupid stuff we do the greater the ROI. So I started putting maybe 20 mins a day of morning reflection and sentence completion to sort of navigate and focus properly for the day to come. But this requires asking myself how I feel and possibly reducing any feelings that might affect me negatively during the day. It’s a good ROI to clear the head and re-inforce some things consciously by thinking about them at the beginning of each trading day.
I don’t want to think what I did last four months but it would also be a nice memoir. Some thing top of my head
- Started using Windsurf IDE and stopped using Pycharm. All new code I create is by using Windsurf IDE. I have more brain capacity for trading when I use it less for coding. Instead, it’s more like being a project manager.
- Deployed first apps to Render
- Started using Cloudflare and buckets for the first time
- Started moving postgres to cloud
- Re-created an app for managing tickers on which I analyze stocks for 1.5h a day
- Deployed app for getting alerts from tradingview to my database so it can feed live HTML dashboards with all alerts with 1 sec delay with additional data from my locally hosted postgres db via SSH
- Split IBKR account into
- Made good calls on gold, silver, some stocks, unh knife catch, Overall up
- Experimented with a straddle for first time
- Missed out on the VIX spike coz I was totally focused on reflecting and was out of markets…
- Learned a lot from recent trades
- Enjoys this path
- Stopped drinking alcohol also. Didn’t drink since last post
- Realized that I was going to gym to escape feeling of fear. I trained too much and was tired and was putting too much focus into it with diet, 3x hard training a week, run 2x.
- Realized I feel much better doing trainings 2x a week in gym and supplement with 1x run up hill and zone 2 for 30-45 mins few times a week. I also do HIIT once or twice a week. Basically, 2 exercises Monday to Friday.
- Started doing sauna 3-4x a week
Anyways, things are overall better. I know what to focus on and I’m getting there.
